A New Gem

I have done a lot of spiritual growing this week. I have been asking why much lately and a wise man told me that is a bad question. I believed him, and in most instances he is probably right, however I do not have a normal brain. My subconscious kept plaguing me, not in a whiny way but more insistent like I was slow and it wanted me to understand something. This is what I learned;

My life has been specifically designed, engineered if you will, so that I may learn those things that are critical for me specifically to know, understand, become, so that I can progress to the next level, ascend, become exalted. That is what this earth is for so that we can all learn what we need to. I do not feel that makes God cruel. I feel it is more like tough love, it must be hard for Him to watch us suffer knowing that if He interferes he robs us of the opportunity to learn, grow, and stand on our own eventually. As a parent I can relate as I try to let my children learn from there own mistakes or navigate their own hardships that my own interference would only diminish their ability to deal with in the future. I appreciate the opportunity He gives me to succeed or fail upon my own merits, it will make the prize truly my own someday! I am grateful for the comfort, council, and succor He gives me so that I can continue onward. For occasionally carrying me until I can walk again and then letting me try that problem again until I can master it on my own feet but always with His encouraging support on the sidelines. This life wasn't meant to be a paradise, ideal or easy. It is a proving ground! In Star Trek season 1 episode 4 the Enterprise encounters an E.M. anomaly it affects two crew members
who have strong ESP factors, their abilities grow
and develop quickly, they become godlike in power
but have not developed the strength of character to wield that
power. Oh Mr. Roddenberry how truly insightful you were!!!

So in light of my new understanding which has alleviated the anger, frustration and futile feelings, but not the sadness or fatigue, I have written a new poem which I think is a Gem! Please help me name it.

Everest is a long way up,
The Ocean floor a long way down,
Kolob is beyond my ken,
And the end of now,
I don't know when,
Fatigue lingers in every cell,
And I long for a dipper into that well,
Bring me strength and vitality,
Bring me a light for eternity,
I know I'll go on,
I'll make that climb
Lend me endurance,
To walk the line.